Gave up

Got one thing off my plate today, and passed the presidency of the sorority alumnae association off to somebody else. I've been doing a crap job at it for at least the past year, despite any nice words anyone has to say to try and smooth over that obvious fact. It all started off pretty well, agendas and communication and all. But I've obviously got more on my plate now than I can handle, and some things have got to go.

I didn't plan to take on the presidency to begin with, but agreed to it thinking that it really wasn't going to take up that much of my time. And to be honest, it's not that it would have taken that much time to do a good job. I like to say that I just don't have time for everything, but in reality I think the problem isn't dwindling time as much as it's dwindling capacity to keep everything straight in my head.

It used to make me feel really good to have a lot of things going on in my life at once, lots of things to juggle. But I'm increasingly realizing that there's a limit to that, and priorities have to be set. The store has to be my main priority, and it's hard enough to keep all the pieces of that in the air, much less all the other things I've taken on in addition.

So now it feels really good to pass that off to somebody else. It's not like I'm abandoning the alumnae stuff altogether. I just need a little bit more mind space and, well, a little less guilt. Every time a meeting rolled around and I found myself unprepared yet again, I felt really bad about it. Self-induced guilt is not conducive to productivity at all.